Wednesday, June 29, 2005

work: great!
environment: great!
colleagues: great!

at least someting good is happening to me now..........*sigh*

10:30 PM

another 6 and a half hour....
i'll hv to wake up....
and get ready to be like an adult....
a marketing assistant....

i'm still leading a fuck up life...
dun ask me how's life...
cuz the worst and most ridiculous tings all happened to me!
now u mofo ass(es)
leave my life alone!

i had enough!
stop treating me like a fool!
i'm not some ger u can mess ard with...
now fuck off from my life!
u psychotic bastard!

1:28 AM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

last day of freedom...

bad migrain...

i wonder...

is it the cause of my wisdom tooth again...

or is it i'm using too much brain cells...

missing him...

i'm emotionally drained..

i need my oxygen...

i need my water...

......i need a gd night rest........

8:36 PM

Monday, June 27, 2005

i'm still blogging from home...

i sld be glad i'm still home bcuz...
first of all...
my manager is on leave...
so i cant start work until he signs my approval form....

second of all...
i was 1 cm away from riding into a big drain (long gao) last nite...
great...
it was a close shave...

dis taught me a lesson...
dun pick up any calls when u are trying to do a turning...

and the stupid me...
pick up the phone and ended up goin up the pavement and the front wheel of my bicycle almost went in the drain...
yes...1 CM apart and i might not be here typing dis post.....

i might be now having a tear skin...
with bright red blood flowing...
and mingwei mocking at me bcuz i was dat stupid to pick up dat phonecall...
and ended with unpleasant drain smell...

i'm glad all dis din happened.....
so too bad whoever tries to kill me when i'm riding my bicycle...

but i still end up with more blue blacks...
yea...AS USUAL....
wads new anyway?
will post them up when i feel like it...

till den...

laterz!

1:07 PM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

dis 2 weeks...
have been a really traumatizing week for me...

ridiculous is the only word best fit to describe everyting...

HIM...
lost the trust dat i gave him.....

a fren whom i treated him as a gd fren...
someone i can confide my feelings to...
someone i can trust...
lost the trust too...

dun ask me how's life?...
cuz it sux...

but i'm learning to move on...

i hv a job...
to keep me busy from now on...

i hv my frens...
who keeps me happy all the time...
who are there for me all dis time...

Frens who are close to me noe dat i've been in dis fairy tale for 5 long months.....
and now......
my fairy tale is gone....
i wun say dis chapter is fully closed....
bcuz i wld be lying if i say i really dun hv feelings for him anymore...
though all dis while...
He hv been an imaginary figurine to me...
but He has been my pillar...
pushing me to achieve tings dat i nv thot i cld achieve...
i still do thank god i've met him...
at least i once had dis beautiful fairy tale........

now i've said enough...
u all noe wad is happening in my life already...
spare the details...
as i dun really wish to be reminded of the ridiculous incidents dat has happen for the past 2 weeks.....
i juz wan to keep everyting as it is...
before 11 june.....
my sweetest memory.....

---

had a chat with my fren...
he told me my secondary skool band is doin great...
esp outdoor...

and suddenly...
i feel like crying...

bcuz....
i miss my band so much.....
i miss my sec skool days so much.....

sometimes i wish i'll nv grown up....
bcuz i was very blessed during sec skool....
i had great pals...
i had great relationships...
i had fun...
i had great band juniors...
i had great band seniors...
i had fun teachers...

band played a big part of my life during sec skool.....
for band...
i was willing to give up almost everyting...
even the dearest one of my life...

i regretted now...
why din i treasure the times back in sec skool...
why din i insisted on goin to music...

*sigh*

for now...i hv to live day by day....
i'll be working...
if work goes well for me...
i might not be studying in SIM nx yr...

i'll cont to work and save up...
and i'll study overseas...

i need to get out of Singapore...
bcuz i no longer feel dat there is a need for me to stay here...
the big world outside there is waiting for me...
to undiscovered new stuffs...
new experiences....

till den...my life is no longer interesting.....
u all can dun bother looking at my blog anymore...

look at shuiyi's post like stupid decision on her smoky eyes is more interesting...or abt she seeing jay at lido and in the end its huang qiu seng waving at her...yea....

laterz...

7:42 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

woke up at 9.40AM today...
TO WATCH INITIAL D!!!

dis is like the duno how many donkey years i WAKE SO EARLY to catch a movie...and its like 11.40am show...and the advertisment lasted for like 25 mins?!?!?!

WADS WRONG WITH GV?

anyway...gd stuffs ARE WORTH WAITING FOR....

my edison is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HANDOME! *drools...* he is god damn cute! i swear! my only wish now is to marry him...if not i'll be a lesbian!

jielun is dashing too!!! sooooooo attractive......omg.......

wen le is really cool.....but oso very handsome....

i give dis show 2 thumbs up!!! definately loadsa eye candy! for gers i muz say....hehe!

the urge for speed....makes me lurve racing.....i hope i dun crash my instructor's car tml while learning driving....haha! madness!

anyway....it'll be my last weekend for holiday.....

officially starting work on MONDAY! dis coming monday! yes...i repeat...DIS MONDAY 27 June! who wana date me faster date....anyway i not free on saturday oso cuz goin shujing bbq....but free on the afternoon i guess....hehe!

my life sux! i need a life! hope i can get to see edison SOON! *dreamz*

2:44 PM

on saturday i went to my secondary skool best from party...at swiss merchant court.... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY STEPZ! finish ur studies in melborne and come back quick! miss u soooooo much!!!

2:02 AM

THE BIRTHDAY GER!!!

2:01 AM

secondary skool pals at the bday party...

2:00 AM

the great pal from bimbotic club....*smiles*

1:59 AM

Anning and Kenneth

1:59 AM

Sheryl and V.J

1:58 AM

afterall we are not dat close huh? trying to kill each other?

1:56 AM

shirley, veron and me

1:55 AM

the beautiful back of Miss Stephanie Ngooi~!

1:55 AM

the birthday ger and me...STEPZ! the bimbo queen in melborne...

1:55 AM

Reflection from the mirror....

1:54 AM

veron and me...my dearest jie,,,

1:53 AM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

i knw my blog is getting emo and sad.....

great concerns from frens....asking me to cheer up....

really thank u ALL a lot....

though am at the lowest of the roller coaster ride....

there's still good news for me....

i've got a JOB!!!

at NSRCC! (National Service Resort & Country Club)

as Marketing Assistant...

Cool.......

been really scared dat i couldn't find a marketing job....and worst come to worst...maybe i sld start trying airline.....afterall...singapore is no longer a place i wanted to stay on....

decisions in my future always involved u...

now...i'm living day by day again...

no motivations....no hope....

oh...maybe there's some hope.....

i saw EDISON, Jay Chou, Wen Le, Huang Qiu Seng, and Ah Bee at LIDO yesterday for the preview of Initial D....

EDISON IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!

i'm flying over there HK or Taiwan wherever he is to marry him! *dreamz* haha! oh god! i almost fainted when i saw him k?!?!?!

Huang Qiu Seng waved to me and Shui Yi!!! wooooo!!! he look so much better in real person....

AH Bee look so much younger and handsome in real person too!!! OMG! *drools*

WenLe is soooooo COOOL!!! but i like....

Jay is obviously the popular one....where shuiyi went shouting at the camera man...."WEI...DUN BLOCK LA!!!" hahaha! but Jay is really cute......wow.....

still i prefer edison....=P

ritez....

10.36am now....i sld be slping but too excited bcuz i'm short listed...no...i mean I"M HIRED!!!!!!! no longer unemployed....SHUIYI!!! who's the lazy one now??? nah ni nah ni boo boo!!! *bleahz!*

10:36 AM

Monday, June 20, 2005

4.30AM at siglap with our TEH SI....still looking energetic after being drenched and smelling like shit......

10:05 PM

my dearest mingwei....my crazy nite cycling pal....w/o her...i'll be left alone in east coast....cold...hungry...lonely.......*hugz* I LURVE U MINGWEI!!!

10:04 PM

dreaming xiao ming and me at bedok 85.....

10:03 PM

woooo.....BIG TORTISE spotted 5.30am in bedok....

10:02 PM

mingwei with the BIG tortise....

10:00 PM

6AM....pronounce dead at eric's void deck.......

9:58 PM

Ever since i started nite cycling....there are new wounds or loadsa mosquitoes bites on me....but dis physical wounds nv hurts me much...not as much as emotionally wounds......

5:50 PM

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BLUE BLACK!!! since young i hv been clumsy and always bump into here and there.......now.......i no longer hv to keep taking care of myself.....i can bump into tings without been scared dat it'll makes u worry too.....

5:44 PM

wake up at 9.50am yesterday.
went to work.
morning event at Ritz Carlton was slow but was a success.
Conrad was a boring shit dat i see Spidy Web invading ShuiYi's Hair.
Yosinoya Lunch was fucking full again with ShuiYi. *Burpz*
Slp deprived. We almost fell asleep while eating.

Evening.
Back to work.
Hougang CC. Disaster.
Fuck the woman in blue.
Photographer almost threw camera at them.
John the boss almost went crazy.
Shuiyi wanted to KILL her!
I...wanted to say FUCK OFF U BITCH!
9.45pm.
First time ever WE packed our stuffs so FAST.
RAN OUT of CC.
like we've owe a million bucks to them.

Dinner at huo guo near my place.
crappy boss.
weird photographer.
and my bitchy partner ah shui.
phone call from overseas.
noisy roadside.
standing on the side of in between geylang lor 3 and 1.
fucking perverts staring.
FIERCE AH LIAN (courtesy of my boss) staring back at them.
i swear if one of them talks to me.
i'll kick his groin and give him 2 tight slaps.
back to dinner.
freaking full.
without invitation by HOPPING onto our boss car to tk a ride home.

home.
phone call frm andy.
bloated.
SO nite cycling to east coast again.
phone call frm mingwei.
3 racer racing at east coast.
They almost knock into me.
BUT if dey are cute i dun mind.
exit to amber underpass.
katong.
tanjong katong pri skool.
1am.
finally mingwei and her bic appear.

cycle back to east coast.
rainning cats and dogs.
drenched.
flooded MacDonald.
XiaoQiang running everywhere.
Scaring the shit outta me.
Hot Milo.
French Fries.
Apple Pie.
fucking attitude service at Mac.
touch lite spoil.
stuck in rain.
7 eleven.
9.90 VS 3.40
we've got noting.
endure the cold and cont cycling.
Bedok.
Siglap.
3.40AM.
Teh Si.
FAT CAT.
2 cold crazy ger roaming ard in their bicycle.
trying to get themselves drenched and get bitten by mosquitoes.
high possibility of dying frm dengue.
7 eleven again.
A pair of PINK couple hand towels.
Nice staff of 7 eleven.
offered us hot drinks. sweet...
Eunos.
Slops.
4.50AM.
Bedok 85.
Eric's Void Deck.
BIG TORTISE.
white cat VS big tortise.
6 AM.
Eric and his 2 yr of supply for 2 weeks of reservist.
bedok 85 porridge for breakfast.
dead.
home by cab.
7plus am.
pronounce dead.

12:55 PM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

3rd nite cycling...
i'm getting good at dis....

wad sld one do when someone steal ur trademark and use? i only noe i'll be really angry.....esp when the trademark is so special......

dis shit sux.....i need to implement copyright! fuck! its been days i've been staring at it.....and it really make my blood boils......*screams!!!!!* i am gonna hv a BF! i swear i gonna do someting to it.........and get at least trademark not being USED BY OTHER!

fuck! WAD HAPPEN TO COPYRIGHT LAWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4:51 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

juz got home.....
strong sea breeze tonite at east coast.....
still no stars...
the stars seems to be hiding from me....
i miss them....
juz like i miss u.....

nite cycling is cool....
and i really enjoy it.....
sitting by the beach is relaxing....
esp when the wind hits on ur face.....

thx stanley for ur company again...
we sld do dis more often.....
or maybe we can start a nite cycling club...
it'll be really cool....
*grinz*

i gonna start building up my stamina....
my final destination is Sentosa.....
yea....
to see the stars.....
and enjoy the peace.....
juz like the fairy tale.....
where the sky above us is filled with glittering stars......

4:02 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

my nite cycling....
filled with peace....
filled with songs frm my mp3....
filled with sound of the waves hitting each other......
filled with kids playing ard.....
filled with bbq smell....
and filled with my sweat smell.....

muz be digusting rite? but well....after i've sweat it out....i feel better....sadly tonite there was no sea breeze when i sat by the beach......

but i'm contented with the sound of nature.....the waves hitting the shore....waves hitting waves....cat fights....bird chirping....cricket sound...frog sound....yea...not to forget...disgusting blackie well known as xiao qiang running out and scare the shit outta me.....big RATS running ard the beach....i wonder are they blind....hmmm.....

no stars....the clouds invaded the sky once again....frm 11plus i cycled to east coast.....and finally rested my butt down at 12plus....admiring my surroundings.......

East Coast....forever a fav hang out for couples.....i avoid one pair by one pair....finally found a quiet spot to rest my butt.....but dis uncle and aunty had to come and beside me....but well...luckily dey din start any hanky panky stuffs....at least it din make me puke....

surprise surprise....mr stanley was at east coast too.....seeing him makes me feel great too....at least he makes a gd entertainer....always putting on a smile on my face....but sad to say....his skill kinda went down hill...or maybe i wasn't in the rite mood....but nonetheless.....i wana say thx to him....accompanying me....lobanging on my bicycle....making me control the handle and scare the shit outta me....trying to scare me with wads behind the bushes.....telling me i might get rape if i go home alone....overall....THX FOR TRYING TO SCARE MR STANLEY BUT IT DIN WORK! *bleahz!*

sorrie gers dat i've made u all worried.....dun worry so much abt me now...i'm a big ger....i can tk care of myself physically at least....leaving the blue blacks and spraining my bones alone...yea...i've lived up to a good 20 yrs of not getting into serious physically problem....*smiles* thank you my beloved shuishui, mingwei and ahmah....dun worry...i noe wad u all said meant well for me....*hugz*

sorrie andy...i've made u worried too....thx for always being here when i need u....u've been a really gd fren....i'm a scary cat...and i'm scared of pain....so dun worry too much yea? the smile will keep goin.....for there are still so many ppl dat i lurve are concerned abt me.....*smiles* thx dude...really appreciates it.....

wad i fear most for the 5 long months happened....sometimes i juz wish my intuition wasn't dat accurate.....

the accident....
ur left ankle....
ur pain.....
i'm sorrie.......

i pray for u to recover soon....
be all well again....
i'm juz glad u are okay now.....

whatever happens in life....it happens for a reason....
I.......cld only pray dat it happened for a gd reason.....

enuff of dis emo stuffs....my knees are aching like shit now....i can feel them giving way....afterall i reach home not long ago....ard 2plus am....but i'm juz glad i did it all on my own.....*smiles*

3:40 AM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

a rainy wednesday morning.......droplets filled my window......and my heart.........

10:01 AM

its a rainy day....for me.....

10:00 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

I've been down

now I'm blessed

I've felt a revelation coming round

I guess it's right

It's so amazing

Everytime I see you I'm alive

You're all I've got

You lift me up

The sun and the moonlight

All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven

Take me to the place you cry from

When the storm blows your way

I wanna be the earth that holds you

Every bit of air you're breathing in

A soothing wind

I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years

If mountains fall I'll still be here

Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven

Take me to the place you cry from

When the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven

Inside your Heaven by Carrie Underwood and Bo Bice....

3:57 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

Pain is Part of Growing Up.

That's how we Learn.

12:50 PM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

my computer is ALL WELL AGAIN!!!

all thx to Dr. Andy for saving my com frm all the stupid virus dat invaded my precious black darling dell....hehe! =)

now i can blog and post photos again!!! yippeee!!!

10:09 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

well...there's actually ALOT of photos dat i wana post them up....but my stupid computer is still down.....yea...the internet explorer...thus... there are loads of photos missing....and i gave up trying to post all!

make do with wad i hv....haha! and i'll be back with more!!! ^_^ till den...hope Mr Andy can save my computer tml!!!

bar zhang day coming soon! yea....tml after driving will be a shopping spree with mingwei! if there's noting to shop...we'll be dropping by shuishui's house to invade her kitchen and eat up ALL her bar zhang! wahaha! like we can.....her mama making like over hundreds of them...yea...how cool!

bar zhang rox!

till den dis computer is pronounce useless...

1:11 AM

eileen and pris